看到《明周》封面的那一刹那呆了三秒，眼泪差点涌出来，真是Sabine~在工作耶大姐！

刘家玲说：原来真的会感动的。

我突然想起《大话西游》里面的紫霞最后一句话：我的意中人是个盖世英雄，有一天他会踩着七色的云彩来娶我，我猜中了前头，可是我猜不着这结局...

刘家玲才是猜中结局的那位。

很心酸，很感动，很复杂的感觉。Anyway，best wishes to the new couple!

Sometimes I not happy because some people don't like me.Like yestoday when I arrived,I heard a gossip:once I go to office to see Donna(my boss),she gave some comments on my wearings:like a prostitute.

But the fact is that I never see Donna alone,and each time I saw her was at the meeting with other interpreters,and every time I was dressed up formally.What a gossip!

This feeling that others,include YY ,don't like me often makes me sad.I've desided not to let those who don't like me upsetting me anymore.BE HAPPY.

I feel that I become one "SHI'NAi".Recently I always buy things when there's discount.I've brought many Neutrogena masks at HK.WA KA KA ^^At Guangzhou it cost 109RMB for 5 pcs,and at HK it cost less then 60 HK dollars,that's 50% less then the price at Guangzhou. And I've brought bra at Triumph,50% off,and if you spend more then 388HK dollars,10 more percent off,and with the change rate,10 more percent off.WA KA KA^^What's more? You can try them on though they're on discount,and you've more choice then GZ.But You have to find your size.There're not many choices in my size.I've brought a very sexy bra,and a t-back for the fist time.WA KA KA^^in July,many things are on discount,but one "SHI'NAI" as smart as I am won't buy the clothes which should be out the  next year,so I often chose those that Tiffany consider too old for me, anyway, I'm getting old.But buying bras won't have this problems,cause even in winter I won't wear those thick bras.So,Bargain!

 

I'm going to take a course of painting after this flight.Decided.YY used to hope that I could learn to play piano,he said my figers are long and thin.I'd wanted to, but I know that I won't do well.

When I look for the course of painting on line,I find that most of the courses are focus on the students who are going to take the test of entering university of art.That wasn't a terrible thing? Not only paint for test,but learn to paint for test.

I feel that I'm lucky.When I was at midle-school,I hoped that one day I can get a job which allow to have a lot of private time, just like such kind of translator who translate the book at home,and have time to learn or do something else.Alike the translator,I'm an inflight-interpreter,and I also have a lot of  private time.And I'm lucky that I still have the money to learn something.It's very funny,the teacher has agreed that I "open a card",since I can't take the regular course because of my irregular schedule of work.That means I give monney for 10 course,but not for a month,and I can take the course when I'm free.It's like the girls who go out for facial treatments.I don't go out for facial treatments,some of my colleague will spend thousands RMB on facial treatments or go to the gymnasiums.But the couses only take me several hundred.WA KA KA~Like a bargain~

 

终于搞掂翻个电脑，可以打中文了，不过爱上英文添~虽然成日唔记得单词点串~咔咔~

Finally a GOOD news,I've suddenly lost a little weight,2kg, however, something that makes me happy.People say that 21 gram is the weight of the soul,the moment somebody dies, he will lose 21 gram.Then,2kg,is it the weight of love?

但是“伤心劳神”痘依然顽强占据地盘！！！

I've brought the film"the kite runner"a longtime ago,but since I haven't finished the book,I don't want to see the film.That's not because I 把它束之高阁，but my speed of reading is really 不敢恭维。Still 200 pages,Du Courage!

Everyday I have to find out something to do,and I do have a lot of things disire to do.But the terrible temperature makes me stay at home most of the time.So,life turns to how it really is:boring.

Heureusement,je n'ai pas pleure,j'ai pu ne pas pleurer.Les gens, les sentiments sont parti pour toujour avec larmes.

When the world begin to calm down,here comes the difficult moments.After the days with Andy,I used to go to the bar these moments.People used to say that the bars are those places where people look for happiness. But in fact, you don't know you drink for happiness or sadness. There's one thing to be ensured:you'll foget your happiness or sadness,everything.At this point, it's a good place for me. It's so regretful that I don't have a good stomach.

        To be a man is always a favoritism of the God.If I am a man, I think there are no real difficult moments of love.They take it so easy.If they want,they can pretend to be,no, not pretend,act like nothing has happened,no one's ever steped in there lives.But women don't.People often said that things will be hazy as time goes by.That's because they don't know things carved in heart won't be hazy.You can put them in some concealed corners,but they are always there,deep in your heart.One of them is scar,the other is love.

        I force myself to put the  gold "second button" deep in my cabinet. As they all wished,I should be strong myself,so that they don't even have to pretend to be guilty or worried about me.

        May tears never fall.

 

 

keep your last honor and pride

I give you one more chance to cry

It's so painful.Why just let me alone to carry all the pain?Why not show some merci to me?I'm just a beggar of love.I pay you sex for the love,what I've got is more pain and heartbreak.Do I only deserve this?Tell me how to stop it.The endless pain in the heart.It crush me and I just can't breath.Please tell me,please help me,please love me,please don't leave me

 

One of the most depressed thing is that you're not beloved as much as you'd thought, even far away from the degree you intend to attain.

But the thing more depressed is that you love more than you'd estimated, and much more profound than the deepness you thought to be reached.

last night I laid in bed,let the heart hurt,let the tears well,let the sorrow burst,cause I don't have the strength to cover it anymore.

and I realized that I've got to be suffered alone,it's 5 o'clock in the morning at Guangzhou,everyone's sleeping,maybe with someone beside them.

I'm not going to escape anymore,I'm not going to depend on someone anymore.I hope so.

It's a beautiful summer afternoon.Bees are flying around the lavenders,unknown-named trees are bearing fruits,and the dandelions that look like the feathers of the angle wings are flying everywhere.I picked some seeds of the dandelion and hope that I can show you the beauty.Somebody said the love is just a desire to share the happiness and the beauty to whom you want to share with.Roissy is a beautiful place,and I always want you to be with me all these moments.

       So I gave you a call.As I imagined,if you're not at the bar this time,you will be on the way to it.Suddently,I feel like we're in the different world.It's me who fight to join the two in one.Not only you,but also him.It's me who against the world.And I'd remembered the worlds I've just read in [The Kite Runner]:It was Homaira and me  against the world.And I'll tell you this, In the end, the world always wins.That's just the way of things. Don't mention that I'm alone.

A windy day at Roissy.

Lonely.tired with reading.

missing you but not really want to see you.

out for a walk/

 

feelings are hazy.

passion is not love.

sometimes i just can't bear the weight of loneliness.

or,WE can't.

passion is not love.

something wrong with my computer,i can't input in chinese.

 

things are changing, people are changing,feelings are changing,i'm changing,i grow up and apt to grow old.

我对YY说:我诅咒你这辈子不会再有人真心爱你!

也诅咒我自己.

YY真的是彻底离开我了.

除了伤痛什么也没有留下.

哪怕一张合照都没有.

我又一个人了.

那些爱我的不爱我的

都以各种动听的谎言离开了我

其实我心里明白

没有人真的爱我

我不要一个人我不要一个人我不要一个人我不要一个人我不要一个人我不要一个人我不要一个人

这两天吃了药,十分难受,吃完不到半小时开始就心跳加快,还真的是血管膨胀,感觉快暴血管了,呼吸困难,四肢无力(不是什么心如鹿撞触电的感觉,难受死了).晚上异常亢奋,可以彻夜不眠,白天却头重脚轻.我要坚持,加油!

梦半醒
我方知这样寒冷
何谓爱
无非凄风苦雨间
流着血红着眼
就算多转几个弯
明日纵酒醒宿醉未散
寻常一对到头来
毫无乐趣
然而呼喊痛哭拉扯可是对
为何烧到猛火里
我都不介意伴随
话我知
这生醒了又再醉
问苍天
有几多快活儿女
我颤抖
你的嘴带热还冷
沉下去
沉于枕边黑发间
明是错无力挽
让爱主宰这瞬间
何用理悲欢哭笑聚散
寻常一对到头来
毫无乐趣
然而呼喊痛哭拉扯可是对
为何烧到猛火里
我都不介意伴随
话我知
这生醒了又再醉
问苍天
有几多快活儿女
寻常一对到头来
毫无乐趣
然而呼喊痛哭拉扯可是对
为何烧到猛火里
我都不介意伴随
话我知
这生醒了又再醉
问苍天
有几多快活儿女